Its hard to let go of the only thing i've ever known. I am unsure about a lot of things, make mistakes frequently, and trip over my own words 99% of the time but I have never been more sure about this. What am I sure about you ask? Him. Yes, for right now he shall remain anonymous, for those that know me, you know him well.
I have been in and out of numerous relationships, I've broken hearts as well as broken my own. I've fallen "in like" and have been infatuated with some, but no one, i repeat, NO ONE will ever have my heart. It is absolutely impossible, for the simple fact that HE, has and will always have it.
Tears, death, drunken nights, fights, kisses, firsts, highschool, college, Florida, New York, Pennsylvania - it has always been him. 6 years and everyday I find more and more reasons to fall in love with him. Our relationship isnt exactly the model kind, and we fight more than normal but I would never trade him for the world. For he has taught me everything that I know today and believe it or not, has molded me into the arrogant bitch I am now. Because of him, I break hearts.
see, breaking hearts is not my hobby, but its a form of release. ah, I know it sounds horrible, but do not think less of me. Everything happens for a reason right?
So assist me in looking for the reason of my broken heart. When everything I did was perfect for him, when he was my only one. I wish love was like a retro pop song, I want you to want me, and BAM! just like that. But its never really like that is it?
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does "HIM" not want to be with you?
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