My mind is a puzzle & lately someone new has been trying to put the pieces together as well as try and fit in some of his own. He truly is an inspiration, I just dont know if I'm emotionally stable enough to let someone else in. My mind has reached it's capacity ; & thats 1, her. He makes me think, he makes me want to press rewind on the controller of life and erase things and if i cant, make things better for tmrw. He's trying to get into my head, and most times he is indeed successful. I've grown to love him, not in a romantic kind of way; but in a "you understand how my mind works, no one ever has, bestfriend, dont ever go" kind of way.
I love his presence, his comforting ways, his ability to actually make myself think, the way he can make me speak my mind and stop biting my tongue without force.. but just with an ear. he LISTENS and not just hears me. He makes me appreciate things in life that I've turned my back on before. That is truly remarkable. No matter how much he says he has done things that were horrible, I truly believe he is a beautiful person. Inside & out. His mind is amazingly complex yet beautiful.
I am afraid. why?
because in the end; people always turn out to be the person they promise they wouldn't.
& i dont think i can handle that
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